Thursday, September 22, 2022

Relapsing


Mom...


This empty feeling keeps relapsing. 

Questioning how I live my life. 

Thinking what to do tomorrow.

Wondering why I should do these things.


When you were here,

I never felt tired.

I am always on fire.

Because all is about you, for you.


But now without you,

I easily feel exhausted,

Like the days are no meaning,

no purpose.



Mom...


What should I do now?

Should I cry for help?

Seeking for happiness?

Why does it sounds hard for now?


I know I am escaping,

which is the only thing I can do for now,

even though the happiness is just a momentary.

The empty feeling stays longer than the bliss.


They said I should do my hobbies.

She said I need to move forward.

But, those saying are not as easy as flipping your hand.

Should you be in my position to understand my situation?


Anyway, 

as I am trying to move,

again, 

the missing feeling keeps relapsing


I guess,

I should meet you and hug you again.

That's my wild mind

But for real, I ask Him to hug you and protect you in His good place.


See you Mom at the time when He decides us to meet again :')

Hope He sends me the way how to live my life before meeting you,

somehow...

in any ways :)

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